Kana kanum kalangal

- November 23, 2018

Sitting in a train 🚊 towards chennai,through the watery glass.. I could spot a teen boy carrying a load at his back,with his eyes filled with tears & a sign of never wanted departure in his face..

His parent, hiding all those sorrows inside..were forcing their lips to curve although their eyes had already wetted their tight faces..

Almost all of us would have experienced this pain of departure in some forms in our lives

I badly wanted to distract myself,as this pain was once my all time travel companion.but I couldn’t....i was watching the entire scene finally he boarded the train...to my shock and surprise.. it was Guruvayur Express💔..

I was almost lost into my memory lane..

“THRISSUR”the first toughest phase of my life.. I believe there is some reason behind every happenings of our lives.. this phase too..

It all started this way...

May 6,2016

The prolonged confusion of setting NEET ⁉️marks as determining factor for getting a medical seat came to an end..

A year of hardwork was almost a heavy rain ☔️ in a sandy desert 🌵 for all the bio students..

After a long discussion,some of our parents decided to join us in some institute in Kerala..

I was totally down for two reasons..

One full year effort, behind the board exams was useless😞..
We just had our exams done,it’s really horrible to get done with another set of books as huge as pillows and beds 😫..

Although there was no chance of compromise the only source of light,in the sea of darkness is ma buddies♥️..

Nearly half of my school’s bio students had joined the same institute,and resided in the same hostel....we are damn lucky that,even after our schooling we had an awesome time together

As I boarded the train, I could spot more number of my schoolmates than I expected ..

Though there was crackers of laughter and other stuffs for few hours.. I could see almost the same fear in all others faces too...

My mom with her eyes filled with tears.. and trying to hide it from me,was staring outside..

Me: Maaa...

Mom: Mmm... sollu(without turning her face)

Me : Inga paaru maaa...

Mom : (Wiping her eyes with her hands) Sapda ethavathu venuma ma?

Me : (Unable to control my tears) Nalaiku hostel la ipd yaaruma kaepanga?

Mom : Athellam onnu ila.. nangalam inga than irukom.. nee koopta adutha trainla vara porom!.. ithuku ethuku chinna pula mathiri alura?.. en payan epovum ethukagavum ala koodathu (hiding all her sorrows within her beautiful smile)

Me :Un madila paduthukita ma?

Mom : Vaa.... and she kissed me in my forehead

Although I couldn’t sleep.. for their sake I must...

I had a disturbed sleep.whenever I opened my eyes... I could see my father with sleepless eyes and worries about my future outnumbering the wrinkles in his face.

That’s the “Fatherly Love”♥️...although most of our fathers aren’t expressive..but their love towards their children is more than anyone’s love in this world

Right from following u ...when u walk for the first time..till u reach ur platform in ur lyf, with no other motto..just to pick u up,when u fall

The train reached the station around 4.30 am..

It was drizzling outside.. Thrissur, a city perfectly located on the slopes of Western Ghats..

Green 🌿... Green🍀...Green🍃 everywhere, Nature was at its peak of beauty.. in the name of elegance.. yeah Kerala !!... with no second thought itself is GOD’S OWN COUNTRY 🤩

Although my eyes kept admiring the beauty.. my heart and mind together in a sync kept calculating the time left for me to be with my parents..

I neither wanted to join the class nor stay in that so called ‘Hostel’..

I hated everything... the food,the language,that chaechi,that chetta..especially my zoology professor.. he couldn’t even complete a sentence without using four to five Malayalam words...

I badly wanted to go home...

I was so determined to go home,when I came back to hostel after 8 hours class..I couldn’t find my parents.. when I asked the others they told me that my parents had already left

When I tried calling my mom & dad their phone were not reachable ..

I was totally blank, I could do nothing, not even cry.. I badly wanted to leave that place..but being helpless, I kept watching down the street.. a puppy shivering in the rain.. was in search of its way back home..

All of a sudden.. my tears started making its way down the cheeks.. when I turned my eyes back to the street.. I could see the blurred image of my father.. walking towards me

My happiness😍 knew no bounds... I started running madly towards him...

That moment...

To be continued....